Kinda off balance today. I’m actually feeling really good on a physical level. My jaw is no where near as painful, although it still feels like part of it is packed with cotton batting. My shoulder is ‘tight’, but no pain. And, yes, there is some discomfort there, but it sure feels much better. I’m hitting the Imodium pretty hard to keep the c. Diff from totally disrupting my day. And of course, the c.Diff and the ‘effects’ do affect my appetite, so I continue to lose weight… not a good thing this close to starting radiation and chemo therapy.

But Gail isn’t doing so well. One of the teeth that her orthodontist feared was cracked actually came apart, affecting the integrity of her temporary plate. We think that that spot of psoriasis we’ve noticed on her cheek might be another basil cell carcinoma, which, in her current state of mind, she thinks might be squamish (sp?) cell. Of course, this could simply be a bit of psoriasis, but its pretty hard to tell for me. And she knows that she will have a few hard decisions to make when she gets back to work on Wednesday. With all of this, and my cancer, she’s being ‘nickle and dimed‘ into a less than perfect mental state… and I don’t quite know how to jolly her out of it. There is not a lot I can do for each item on the list, except be supportive.

I’m a little bit anxious for her and therefore feeling a bit unbalanced myself…