As we celebrate Christmas I find that I’m not feeling anywhere near as joyous as I have in past years.  Sure, we’ve done the same things with variations, but the same things nevertheless.  I can’t quite figure out why I don’t feel the joy.  Is it because of the sword that hangs over me?  the dramatic change in how things go forward from here weighs so very heavily on me.  I can no longer travel with impunity; I must now carry huge amounts of medical insurance.  What do I do about retirement?  Is it the the question of when my … Continue reading I’ve lost a bit of the joy…